Here I am. Writing this new entry as I think I wanna updating my blog every day as my daily diary.
So, Today my entry entitled as " When we're meant to be, then we're meant to be"
It's quite simple quote actually.
At this very age, I don't see the vision yet to have a marriage, personally. But I don't know about what other people's opinion. Like we have our own personal opinion right?
It is not I'm denying and disagree on the purpose of marry in the very early age. Like even our own prophet, Nabi Muhammad done that before. But like seriously, he got his own reason right?
Like in my case, I just simply think that if you want to get married in the early age, you have to be well prepared mentally and physically.
My definition of physically here is based on your economic aspect as we all know most people who wanna get married are physically fit.
I've seen some of my friends, who get married in the early aged, have such a pathetic life. They neither have money problem, nor can't get along with their own in law family , even their own partner. In that case, I assumed that this "teenager" actually just not well prepared to getting into marriage life.
Well, we all know right that most of the teenager want to be free, enjoying their life with their friends, go for study and for some, they might want to get a job first.
It's quite hard actually for a teenager who didn't prepared in any aspect to just go in into husband and wife relationship. Like seriously, when you get married, you are also married to their family. In this such cases, many young parents especially couldn't get along with their family in law. Based on my friend experience, they even arguing on a small matter.
I don't think that I have to mention other stuff here as I think that you guys also know what I meant.
Like there's an advantage nor also disadvantage on getting married early.
So, just think about it .
L I F E ...
I don't know how to start. But, right now, I feel so damn stress and sad. It's so stress to know that all of your friend has the chances to continue their study, I'm happy for them actually, but I just quite mad when I didn't have the chance to go for my degree together with them.
This is my situation, I have the chances to go for my degree before, but at that very moment also, I got an offered to work. For sure I wanted to go for my degree very bad, but unfortunately, my family urge me to go for the work offer. I know the decision was mine, but I'm so stuck in the middle of dilemma.
Of course, if I continued my study, there's so many circumstances that I have to faced, due to my family current situations, but yet, I'm so not ready to work! Just be real, at the age of 19, are you ready to work yet?
There's so many opinion people gave to me. I've asked all of my family members, my friends. Like seriously, all of them agreed me to go for the job as they said that it's quite hard nowadays for you to find a job, like a job that able to guaranteed your life.
So, just to pleased others especially my mother and dad, I listened to them and checked in to Melaka to start my new life as a government servant. While my friends checked in to their campus.
Truth to be told, it's quite awkward and stressful when your friends called you just to told and have a talked on everything about their study life while you just sat there and listened to them as you don't have any damn idea what had happened. Yeah, I know it's damn cool!
I don't know what's their actual motive. It's neither they wanted to share their happiness or just want to annoyed me. It's either two.
But the most stressful moment is when my teacher called me, and asked me why I didn't go for my degree? And it's like, what should I say? It's like if I told her the truth, will she understand me? Should I told her that my family urged me to go for that work? Should I told her that there's no one want to pay for my study? Should I?
My friends told me " You are actually quite lucky, even luckier than us, because you are now have such a good job, but look at us! Even though we able to go for the degree, but we haven't guaranteed to got a job just you did ! "
Yeah, point is taken. But dude, you have no idea how my work is!
It's super not cool to work with a group of people who aged more than 25, it's super not cool to talked about work matter, it is super not cool to not having such a joke just like what we did when we are around our best friend !
And the most important thing is, IT IS NOT COOL TO THINK ABOUT MONEY! How you spent your money, monthly budget, have to pay for the bills and so on. You guys don't have to think about that! All the thing that you guys have to do is STUDY! STUDY and STUDY !